I feel trapped. Confidence is at an all-time and I have an overwhelming feeling of self-doubt. I am convinced that doubting my own abilities is holding me back now.
I know I am capable of so much more than I am achieving at the moment, but I just need that to be acknowledged by someone, someone who knows the effort that has gone in.
It doesn’t help, that much of what I am working on is mid to long term gain.
Once again I find myself in the realms of obsessive list writing and crossing each point off as they are achieved. It is the only way I can show convince myself that with all the hard work, I am making progress and it will benefit in the long term.
I’m off to do a MOOC now. Got to keep acquiring those new skills.